STILL, FLOWING WATER
Now please pay attention, not allowing your mind to wander off
after other things. Create the feeling that right now you are
sitting on a mountain or in a forest somewhere, all by yourself.
What do you have sitting here right now? There are body and mind,
that's all, only these two things. All that is contained within this
frame sitting here now is called "body". The "mind" is that which is
aware and is thinking at this very moment. These two things are also
called "//nama//" and "//rupa//". "//Nama//" refers to that which
has no "//rupa//", or form. All thoughts and feelings, or the four
mental //khandhas// of feeling, perception, volition and
consciousness, are //nama//, they are all formless. When the eye
sees form, that form is called //rupa//, while the awareness is
called //nama//. Together they are called //nama// and //rupa//, or
simply body and mind.
Understand that sitting here in this present moment are only body
and mind. But we get these two things confused with each other. If
you want peace you must know the truth of them. The mind in its
present state is still untrained; it's dirty, not clear. It is not
yet the pure mind. We must further train this mind through the
practice of meditation.
Some people think that meditation means to sit in some special
way, but in actual fact standing, sitting, walking and reclining are
all vehicles for meditation practice. You can practice at all times.
//Samadhi// literally means "the firmly established mind." To
develop //samadhi// you don't have to go bottling the mind up. Some
people try to get peaceful by sitting quietly and having nothing
disturb them at all, but that's just like being dead. The practice
of //samadhi// is for developing wisdom and understanding.
//Samadhi// is the firm mind, the one-pointed mind. On which
point is it fixed? It's fixed onto the point of balance. That's its
point. But people practice meditation by trying to silence their
minds. They say, "I try to sit in meditation but my mind won't be
still for a minute. One instant it flies off one place, the next
instant it flies off somewhere else...How can I make it stop still?"
You don't have to make it stop, that's not the point. Where there is
movement is where understanding can arise. People complain, "It runs
off and I pull it back again; then it goes off again and I pull it
back once more..." So they just sit there pulling back and forth
like this.
They think their minds are running all over the place, but
actually it only seems like the mind is running around. For example,
look at this hall here..."Oh, it's so big!", you say ... actually
it's not big at all. Whether or not it seems big depends on your
perception of it. In fact this hall is just the size it is, neither
big nor small, but people run around after their feelings all the
time.
Meditating to find peace...You must understand what peace is. If
you don't understand it you won't be able to find it. For example,
suppose today you brought a very expensive pen with you to the
monastery. Now suppose that, on your way here, you put the pen in
your front pocket, but at a later time you took it out and put it
somewhere else, such as the back pocket. Now when you search your
front pocket...It's not there! You get a fright. You get a fright
because of your misunderstanding, you don't see the truth of the
matter. Suffering is the result. Whether standing, walking, coming
and going, you can't stop worrying about your lost pen. Your wrong
understanding causes you to suffer. Understanding wrongly causes
suffering..."Such a shame! I'd only bought that pen a few days ago
and now it's lost."
But then you remember, "Oh, of course! When I went to bathe I put
the pen in my back pocket." As soon as you remember this you feel
better already, even without seeing your pen. You see that? You're
happy already, you can stop worrying about your pen. You're sure
about it now. As you're walking along you run your hand over your
back pocket and there it is. Your mind was deceiving you all along.
The worry comes from your ignorance. Now, seeing the pen, you are
beyond doubt, your worries are calmed. This sort of peace comes from
seeing the cause of the problem, //samudaya//, the cause of
suffering. As soon as you remember that the pen is in your back
pocket there is //nirodha//, the cessation of suffering.
So you must contemplate in order to find peace. What people
usually refer to as peace is simply the calming of the mind, not the
calming of the defilements. The defilements are simply being
temporarily subdued, just like grass covered by a rock. In three or
four days you take the rock off the grass and in no long time it
grows up again. The grass hadn't really died, it was simply being
suppressed. It's the same when sitting in meditation: the mind is
calmed but the defilements are not really calmed. Therefore,
//samadhi// is not a sure thing. To find real peace you must develop
wisdom. //Samadhi// is one kind of peace, like the rock covering the
grass...in a few days you take the rock away and the grass grows up
again. This is only a temporary peace. The peace of wisdom is like
putting the rock down and not lifting it up, just leaving it where
it is. The grass can't possibly grow again. This is real peace, the
calming of the defilements, the sure peace which results from
wisdom.
We speak of wisdom (//panna//) and //samadhi// as separate
things, but in essence they are one and the same. Wisdom is the
dynamic function of //samadhi//; //samadhi// is the passive aspect
of wisdom. They arise from the same place but take different
directions, different functions, like this mango here. A small green
mango eventually grows larger and larger until it is ripe. It is all
the same mango, the larger one and the ripe one are all the same
mango, but its condition changes. In Dhamma practice, one condition
is called //samadhi//, the later condition is called //panna//, but
in actuality //sila//, //samadhi//, and //panna// are all the same
thing, just like the mango.
In any case, in our practice, no matter what aspect you refer to,
you must always begin from the mind. Do you know what this mind is?
What is the mind like? What is it? Where is it?... Nobody knows. All
we know is that we want to go over here or over there, we want this
and we want that, we feel good or we feel bad... but the mind itself
seems impossible to know. What is the mind? The mind hasn't any
form. that which receives impressions, both good and bad, we call
"mind". It's like the owner of a house. The owner stays put at home
while visitors come to see him. He is the one who receives the
visitors. Who receives sense impressions? What is it that perceives?
Who lets go of sense impressions? That is what we call "mind". But
people can't see it, they think themselves around in circles..."What
is the mind, what is the brain?" ... Don't confuse the issue like
this. What is it that receives impressions? Some impressions it
likes and some it doesn't like... Who is that? Is there one who
likes and dislikes? Sure there is, but you can't see it. That is
what we call "mind".
In our practice it isn't necessary to talk of //samatha//
(concentration) or //vipassana// (insight), just call it the
practice of Dhamma, that's enough. And conduct this practice from
your own mind. What is the mind? The mind is that which receives, or
is aware of, sense impressions. With some sense impressions there is
a reaction of like, with others the reaction is dislike. That
receiver of impressions leads us into happiness and suffering, right
and wrong. But it doesn't have any form. We assume it to be a self,
but it's really only //'namadhamma'//. Does "goodness" have any
form? Does evil? Do happiness and suffering have any form? You can't
find them. Are they round or are they square, short or long? Can you
see them. These things are //namadhamma//, they can't be compared to
material things, they are formless...but we know that they do exist.
Therefore it is said to begin the practice by calming the mind.
Put awareness into the mind. If the mind is aware it will be at
peace. Some people don't go for awareness, they just want to have
peace, a kind of blanking out. So they never learn anything. If we
don't have this "one who knows" what is there to base our practice
on?
If there is no long, there is no short, if there is no right
there can be no wrong. People these days study away, looking for
good and evil. But that which is beyond good and evil they know
nothing of. All they know is the right and the wrong -- "I'm going
to take only what is right. I don't want to know about the wrong.
Why should I?" If you try to take only what is right in a short time
it will go wrong again. Right leads to wrong. People keep searching
among the right and wrong, they don't try to find that which is
neither right nor wrong. They study about good and evil, they search
for virtue, but they know nothing of that which is beyond good and
evil. They study the long and the short, but that which is neither
long nor short they know nothing of.
This knife has a blade, a rim and a handle. Can you lift only the
blade? Can you lift only the rim of the blade, or the handle? The
handle, the rim and the blade are all parts of the same knife: when
you pick up the knife you get all three parts together.
In the same way, if you pick up that which is good, the bad must
follow. People search for goodness and try to throw away evil, but
they don't study that which is neither good nor evil. If you don't
study this there can be no completion. If you pick up goodness,
badness follows. If you pick up happiness, suffering follows. The
practice of clinging to goodness and rejecting evil is the Dhamma of
children, it's like a toy. Sure, it's alright, you can take just
this much, but if you grab onto goodness, evil will follow. The end
of this path is confused, it's not so good.
Take a simple example. You have children -- now suppose you want
to only love them and never experience hatred. This is the thinking
of one who doesn't know human nature. If you hold onto love, hatred
will follow. In the same way, people decide to study the Dhamma to
develop wisdom, studying good and evil as closely as possible. Now,
having known good and evil, what do they do? They try to cling to
the good, and evil follows. They didn't study that which is beyond
good and evil. This is what you should study.
"I'm going to be like this," "I'm going to be like that,"... but
they never say "I'm not going to be anything because there really
isn't any "I'"...This they don't study. All they want is goodness.
If they attain goodness, they lose themselves in it. If things get
too good they'll start to go bad, and so people end up just swinging
back and forth like this.
In order to calm the mind and become aware of the perceiver of
sense impressions, we must observe it. Follow the "one who knows".
Train the mind until it is pure. How pure should you make it? If
it's really pure the mind should be above both good and evil, above
even purity. It's finished. That's when the practice is finished.
What people call sitting in meditation is merely a temporary kind
of peace. But even in such a peace there are experiences. If an
experience arises there must be someone who knows it, who looks into
it, queries it and examines it. If the mind is simply blank then
that's not so useful. You may see some people who look very
restrained and think they are peaceful, but the real peace is not
simply the peaceful mind. It's not the peace which says, "May I be
happy and never experience any suffering." With this kind of peace,
eventually even the attainment of happiness becomes unsatisfying.
Suffering results. Only when you can make your mind beyond both
happiness and suffering will you find true peace. That's the true
peace. This is the subject most people never study, they never
really see this one.
The right way to train the mind is to make it bright, to develop
wisdom. Don't think that training the mind it simply sitting
quietly. That's the rock covering the grass. People get drunk over
it. They think that //samadhi// is sitting. That's just one of the
words for //samadhi//, but really, if the mind has //samadhi// in
the sitting posture, in the walking posture, in the standing and
reclining postures. It's all practice.
Some people complain, "I can't meditate, I'm too restless.
Whenever I sit down I think of this and that... I can't do it. I've
got too much bad //kamma//. I should use up my bad //kamma// first
and then come back and try meditating." Sure, just try it. Try using
up your bad //kamma//...
This is how people think. Why do they think like this? These so
called hindrances are the things we must study. Whenever we sit, the
mind immediately goes running off. We follow it and try to bring it
back and observe it once more...then it goes off again. This is what
you're supposed to be studying. Most people refuse to learn their
lessons from nature...like a naughty schoolboy who refuses to do his
homework. They don't want to see the mind changing. How are you
going to develop wisdom? We have to live with change like this. When
we know that the mind is just this way, constantly changing...when
we know that this is its nature, we will understand it. We have to
know when the mind is thinking good and bad, changing all the time,
we have to know these things. If we understand this point, then even
while we are thinking we can be at peace.
For example, suppose at home you have a pet monkey. Monkeys don't
stay still for long, they like to jump around and grab onto things.
That's how monkeys are. Now you come to the monastery and see the
monkey here. This monkey doesn't stay still either, it jumps around
just the same. But it doesn't bother you, does it? Why doesn't it
bother you? Because you've raised a monkey before, you know what
they're like. If you know just one monkey, no matter how many
provinces you go to, no matter how many monkeys you see, you won't
be bothered by them, will you? This is one who understands monkeys.
If we understand monkeys then we won't become a monkey. If you
don't understand monkeys you may become a monkey yourself! Do you
understand? When you see it reaching for this and that, you shout,
"Hey!" You get angry..."That damned monkey!" This is one who doesn't
know monkeys. One who knows monkeys sees that the monkey at home and
the monkey in the monastery are just the same. Why should you get
annoyed by them? When you see what monkeys are like that's enough,
you can be at peace.
Peace is like this. We must know sensations. Some sensations are
pleasant, some are unpleasant, but that's not important. That's just
their business. Just like the monkey. all monkeys are the same. We
understand sensations as sometimes agreeable, sometimes not --
that's just their nature. We should understand them and know how to
let them go. Sensations are uncertain. They are Transient, Imperfect
and Ownerless. Everything that we perceive is like this. When eyes,
ears, nose, tongue, body and mind receive sensations, we know them,
just like knowing the monkey. Then we can be at peace.
When sensations arise, know them. Why do you run after them?
Sensations are uncertain. One minute they are one way, the next
minute another. They exist dependent on change. And all of us here
exist dependent on change. The breath goes out then it must come in.
It must have this change. Try only breathing in, can you do that? Or
try just breathing out without taking in another breath ... can you
do it? If there was no change like this how long could you live for?
There must be both the in breath and the out breath.
Sensations are the same. There must be these things. If there
were sensations you could develop no wisdom. If there is no wrong
there can be no right. You must be right first before you can see
what is wrong, and you must understand the wrong first to be right.
This is how things are.
For the really earnest student, the more sensations the better.
But many meditators shrink away from sensations, they don't want to
deal with them. This is like the naughty schoolboy who won't go to
school, won't listen to the teacher. These sensations are teaching
us. When we know sensations then we are practicing Dhamma. The peace
within sensations is just like understanding the monkey here. When
you understand what monkeys are like you are no longer troubled by
them.
The practice of Dhamma is like this. It's not that the Dhamma is
very far away, it's right with us. The Dhamma isn't about the angels
on high or anything like that. It's simply about us, about what we
are doing right now. Observe yourself. Sometimes there is happiness,
sometimes suffering, sometimes comfort, sometimes pain, sometimes
love, sometimes hate...this is Dhamma. Do you see it? You should
know this Dhamma, you have to read your experiences.
You must know sensations before you can let them go. When you see
that sensations are impermanent you will be untroubled by them. As
soon as a sensation arises, just say to yourself, "Hmmm...this is
not a sure thing." When your mood changes..."Hmmm, not sure." You
can be at peace with these things, just like seeing the monkey and
not being bothered by it. If you know the truth of sensations, that
is knowing the Dhamma. You let go of sensations, seeing that they
are all invariably uncertain.
What we call uncertainty here is the Buddha. The Buddha is the
Dhamma. The Dhamma is the characteristic of uncertainty. Whoever
sees the uncertainty of things sees the unchanging reality of them.
That's what the Dhamma is like. And that is the Buddha. If you see
the Dhamma you see the Buddha, seeing the Buddha, you see the
Dhamma. If you know //aniccam//, uncertainty, you will let go of
things and not grasp onto them.
You say, "Don't break my glass!" Can you prevent something that's
breakable from breaking? If it doesn't break now it will break later
on. If you don't break it, someone else will. If someone else
doesn't break it, one of the chickens will! The Buddha says to
accept this. He penetrated the truth of these things, seeing that
this glass is already broken. Whenever you use this glass you should
reflect that it's already broken. Do you understand this? The
Buddha's understanding was like this. He saw the broken glass within
the unbroken one. Whenever its time is up it will break. Develop
this kind of understanding. Use the glass, look after it, until
when, one day, it slips out of your hand... "Smash!" ... no problem.
Why is there no problem? Because you saw its brokenness before it
broke!
But usually people say, "I love this glass so much, may it never
break." Later on the dog breaks it..."I'll kill that damn dog!" You
hate the dog for breaking your glass. If one of your children breaks
it you'll hate them too. Why is this? Because you've dammed yourself
up, the water can't flow. You've made a dam without a spillway. The
only thing the dam can do is burst, right? When you make a dam you
must make a spillway also. When the water rises up too high, the
water can flow off safely. When it's full to the brim you open your
spillway. You have to have a safety valve like this. Impermanence is
the safety valve of the Noble Ones. If you have this "safety valve"
you will be at peace.
Standing, walking, sitting, lying down, practice constantly,
using //sati// to watch over and protect the mind. This is
//samadhi// and wisdom. They are both the same thing, but they have
different aspects.
If we really see uncertainty clearly, we will see that which is
certain. The certainty is that things must inevitably be this way,
they cannot be otherwise. Do you understand? Knowing just this much
you can know the Buddha, you can rightly do reverence to him.
As long as you don't throw out the Buddha you won't suffer. As
soon as you throw out the Buddha you will experience suffering. As
soon as you throw out the reflections on Transience, Imperfection
and Ownerlessness you'll have suffering. If you can practice just
this much it's enough; suffering won't arise, or if it does arise
you can settle it easily, and it will be a cause for suffering not
arising in the future. This is the end of our practice, at the point
where suffering doesn't arise. And why doesn't suffering arise?
because we have sorted out the cause of suffering, //samudaya//.
For instance, if this glass were to break, normally you would
experience suffering. We know that this glass will be a cause for
suffering, so we get rid of the cause. All //dhammas// arise because
of a cause. They must also cease because of a cause. Now if there is
suffering on account of this glass here, we should let go of this
cause. If we reflect beforehand that this glass is already broken,
even when it hasn't, the cause ceases. When there is no longer any
cause, that suffering is no longer able to exist, it ceases. This is
cessation.
You don't have to go beyond this point, just this much is enough.
Contemplate this in your own mind. Basically you should all have the
Five Precepts [*] as a foundation for behavior. It's not necessary
to go and study the Tipitaka, just concentrate on the Five Precepts
first. At first you'll make mistakes. When you realize it, stop,
come back and establish your precepts again. Maybe you'll go astray
and make another mistake. When you realize it, re-establish
yourself.
* [The basic moral code for practicing Buddhists: To refrain from
intentional killing, stealing, sexual misconduct, lying and imbibing
of intoxicants.]
Practicing like this, your sati will improve and become more
consistent, just like the drops of water falling from a kettle. If
we tilt the kettle just a little, the drops fall out slowly
...plop!...plop!...plop!...If we tilt the kettle up a little bit
more, the drops become more rapid ... plop, plop, plop!!... If we
tilt the kettle up even further the "plops" go away and the water
flows into a steady stream. Where do the "plops" go to? They don't
go anywhere, they change into a steady stream of water.
We have to talk about the Dhamma like this, using similes,
because the Dhamma has no form. Is it square or is it round? You
can't say. The only way to talk about it is through similes like
this. Don't think that the Dhamma is far away from you. It lies
right with you, all around. Take a look ... one minute happy, the
next sad, the next angry ... it's all Dhamma. Look at it and
understand. Whatever it is that causes suffering you should remedy.
If suffering is still there, take another look, you don't yet see
clearly. If you could see clearly you wouldn't suffer, because the
cause would no longer be there. If suffering is still there, if
you're still having to endure, then you're not yet on the right
track. Wherever you get stuck, whenever you're suffering too much,
right there you're wrong. whenever you're so happy you're floating
in the clouds...there...wrong again!
If you practice like this you will have //sati// at all times, in
all postures. With //sati//, recollection, and //sampajanna//, self
awareness, you will know right and wrong, happiness and suffering.
Knowing these things, you will know how to deal with them.
I teach meditation like this. When it's time to sit in meditation
then sit, that's not wrong. You should practice this also. But
meditation is not only sitting. You must allow your mind to fully
experience things, allow them to flow and consider their nature. How
should you consider them? See them as Transient, Imperfect and
Ownerless. It's all uncertain. "This is so beautiful, I really must
have it." That's not a sure thing. "I don't like this at all" ...
tell yourself right there, "Not sure!" Is this true? Absolutely, no
mistake. But just try taking things for real..."I'm going to get
this thing for sure" ... You've gone off the track already. Don't do
this. No matter how much you like something, you should reflect that
it's uncertain.
Some kinds of food seem so delicious, but still you should
reflect that it's not a sure thing. It may seem so sure, it's so
delicious, but still you must tell yourself, "not sure!" If you want
to test out whether it's sure or not, try eating your favorite food
every day. Every single day, mind you. Eventually you'll complain,
"This doesn't taste so good anymore." Eventually you'll think,
"Actually I prefer that kind of food." That's not a sure thing
either! You must allow things to flow, just like the in and out
breaths. There has to be both the in breath and the out breath, the
breathing depends on change. Everything depends on change like this.
These things lie with us, nowhere else. If we no longer doubt
whether sitting, standing, walking, or reclining, we will be at
peace. //Samadhi// isn't just sitting. some people sit until they
fall into a stupor. They might as well be dead, they can't tell
north from south. Don't take it to such an extreme. If you feel
sleepy then walk, change your posture. Develop wisdom. If you are
really tired then have a rest. As soon as you wake up then continue
the practice, don't let yourself drift into a stupor. You must
practice like this. Have reason, wisdom, circumspection.
Start the practice for your own mind and body, seeing them as
impermanent. Everything else is the same. Keep this in mind when you
think the food is so delicious...you must tell yourself..."Not a
sure thing!" You have to slug it first. But usually it just slugs
you every time, doesn't it? If you don't like anything you just
suffer over it. This is how things slug us. "If she likes me, I like
her," they slug us again. You never get a punch in! You must see it
like this. Whenever you like anything just say to yourself, "This is
not a sure thing!" You have to go against the grain somewhat in
order to really see the Dhamma.
Practice in all postures. Sitting, standing, walking, lying...you
can experience anger in any posture, right? You can be angry while
walking, while sitting, while lying down. You can experience desire
in any posture. So our practice must extend to all postures;
standing, walking, sitting and lying down. It must be consistent.
Don't just put on a show, really do it.
While sitting in meditation, some incident might arise. Before
that one is settled another one comes racing in. Whenever these
things come up, just tell yourself, "not sure, not sure." Just slug
it before it gets a chance to slug you.
Now this is the important point. If you know that all things are
impermanent, all your thinking will gradually unwind. When you
reflect on the uncertainty of everything that passes, you'll see
that all things go the same way. Whenever anything arises, all you
need to say is, "Oh, another one!"
Have you ever seen flowing water?...have you ever seen still
water?...If your mind is peaceful it will be just like still,
flowing water. Have you ever seen still, flowing water? There!
You've only ever seen flowing water and still water, haven't you?
But you've never seen still, flowing water. Right there, right where
your thinking cannot take you, even though it's peaceful you can
develop wisdom. Your mind will be like flowing water, and yet it's
still. It's almost as if it were still, and yet it's flowing. So I
call it "still, flowing water". Wisdom can arise here.
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