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From: Kim Baker <KIM@uctlib.uct.ac.za>
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Subject: WHY I LEFT FACTNET - 2
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Continued from Part 1

This was the thing that didn't make sense to me. How come so many 
people were able to escape "mind control"? And I concluded, again, 
that it was ME as an INDIVIDUAL, I had to look at. What was it in 
MYSELF that made me stay, despite never having personally received any 
"wins" from auditing, since I had none? I stayed because my ex-
husband made it a condition of our marriage that I be in Scientology.
I stayed because I had enjoyed auditing to such a degree, that I 
loved it with a passion. I stayed, because I had decided that 
Scientology was my religion. Those were the reasons I stayed.

I struggled to leave because I really loved auditing people. That's 
all. I struggled to leave, because I didn't want all the affidavits, 
and stories of Church crimes to be true. I was not able to gain access 
to any alternative information that would place these affidavits in 
context. I couldn't explain them away. And that is where the Chruch 
has erred - they have not really provided sufficient information to 
explain it all. And they need to do it, for if they don't, people, 
well-intentioned people, will continue to believe only the negative 
stories.

What I missed before, was that a lot of those stories and documents 
come from the time of the Guardian's Office. At that time, the Church 
very definitely DID go off the rails. But I genuinely believe, based
on my own experience here in South Africa (and I really cannot answer 
for America - I don't live there, and I'm therefore not in any 
position to adequately judge for myself), that they have corrected 
these unethical acts, to a large degree. Despite the fact that I took 
a story to the South African press, to a major national newspaper, 
alleging essentially that they had "infiltrated" our government, 
despite the incredible amount of harm that did them, despite the fact 
that in fact they were teaching courses in Business technology to a 
portion of our new government, and that was all, despite the fact 
that I was one of the few "new generation" people on a.r.s that 
supported all those old stories, and said it's still happening - 
despite all that, they never once, in actual fact, harmed, harassed or 
Fair Gamed me. All they did was declare me Suppressive, based on my 
actions, and that was it.

I thought I had been fair gamed, once, based on something a local 
critic told me, relating to a sub judice case, which I am unable to 
speak about, for fear of violating sub judice. I flew off the handle. 
In fact, I later found that what I had been told was untrue. I can 
honestly swear to any court, submit to any polygraph, etc, to confirm 
that they have never Fair Gamed me.

And yet, here I was, agreeing with what everyone here (on a.r.s) 
believes, despite the fact that my personal experience did not match 
it.

So, back to mind control. Is auditing mind-control? I've done a bit 
more research around this, and I do not profess to be an expert on 
mind control. But I did form the opinion that mind-control can only 
occur when we as individuals have an increased suggestibility - and 
that almost always only occurs when one has been deprived of sleep, 
food, is physically uncomfortable, or in pain, or drugged, or has 
imbibed alcohol. All of these things reduce our mental alertness, and 
so, suggestions can take root more easily. If we are in a normal 
state of alertness, we cannot really be influenced by something 
hidden, unless we are unaware of it. So, we find ourselves maybe 
agreeing to advertising, buying products based on adverts, believing 
what our governments are up to based on the media stories they put 
out, believing things because we are not really examining the source 
of information. Or simply believing them because a majority does. Or 
the *apparence* of a majority does. Apartheid South Africa is a good 
example of this. In those days, while Security Police were breaking 
down people's doors, murdering people in cold blood, detaining 
without trail, torturing political dissenters, etc, the TV media on 
the "white" channel (yes, we had a "white" channel") told news of the 
latest rugby results, showed pictures of the State president opening
some new Afrikaner museum, or something, etc, etc. And many of the 
whites, when being confronted with the information of what was REALLY 
going on, didn't want to look, turned away from it, or really didn't 
believe it, because "our president would never lie to us". So, while 
you were all exposed to the pictures of the atrocities in the rest of 
the world, we never saw it, not on the official media.

Eventually, that all crumbled, and the truth is all coming out now - 
truth after truth. Because you cannot squash the truth forever.
So, what I am saying is that we are *all* suggestable, as humans, in 
our everyday lives, to the degree that we do not look or really 
examine what we are being told. If this is mind-control, then we are 
all under it.

And so, I am certain that coercive mind-control can only take place 
under the conditions I described - the person has not had enough 
sleep, or is drugged, etc. In auditing, the PRE-REQUISTES before any 
session can occur, is that the person MUST have had enough sleep, 
MUST have eaten well, MUST not be physically uncomfortable in any way,
MUST not have taken any drugs or alcohol.

Yes, many of the processes run ARE repetitive. To make the person 
look at an area, over and over again, until they do not have any 
distress attached to it any more. The purpose is to make a person see 
something they may not have been aware of, before. They are not told 
what to see, they and only they can say what they see. So there are 
no suggestions being implanted. This is my opinion, based on my 
knowledge of the lower levels only. I am not qualified to give an 
opinion on the Upper Levels. I KNOW that many of you will not agree. 
But I am now satisfied that this is the truth.

Now whether we think the theory behind this is a load of baloney, or 
not, there are many people, thousands of them, that CONSIDER that 
they have been helped by this. Remember Elizabeth McCoy, and 
Whippersnapper? Two Scientologists that were brave enough to stand 
their ground and post to a.r.s. about how they had been helped - 
Elizabeth, who received auditing to help her get through something, 
and to this she attributes a successful marriage - and 
Whippersnapper, who told, in a manner that no-one could dispute as 
anything other than sincere, how Scientology has helped him cope with 
his wife's death. I have spoken to several others, in private, on the 
net, who have told me of similar benefits, sincerely - not in some 
canned, robotic "success story" fashion, but the kind of real, 
genuine testimony that has the ring of truth to it.

Maybe we think they are delusional mind-controlled brainwashed fools.
But they have been helped, they have experienced benefit. This is NOT 
A BAD THING. What right do I have, then, to take that away from them?

And THAT gets to the essence of where I am heading. There are a whole 
bunch of people out there, who have been helped by Scientology, who 
consider it their religion, who consider the OT levels sacred. There 
are a whole bunch of people who CHOOSE not to see them, until they 
feel they are ready. Now no matter how much anyone wants to mock the 
CONTENTS of the upper levels, no matter how much it may read like bad 
science fiction to many of us, the fact remains that those people 
CONSIDER it sacred to them. And it is their BASIC HUMAN RIGHT to 
practice their religion as they want to. NO-ONE has the right to take 
that away from them. NO-ONE. We may feel that this is not a religion, 
it's a scam, but those people feel it is their religion. That is the 
unshakable, indesputable fact - they CONSIDER it to be their 
religion.

And this is the thing that has been gnawing away at me. These are 
people who won't even talk to me anymore, who are very angry at me, 
and who won't change their opinion of me until I do their Steps A - E.
Well, I don't want to do Steps A - E, because that is a path back to 
the Church, and I don't want to go back to Scientology, for while 
it may have helped others, it did NOT help me, and I do most 
stubbornly INSIST on that as the Truth. I have, instead, hooked up 
with local traditional healers, and despite my white skin, I have 
found mentors here that are spiritually wise, kind, and warm beyond 
anything I have ever encountered in my own race group. These are my 
people. They were able to help me deal with my broken heart, they 
were able to help me understand it all, and they are the ones I take 
my guidance from, and learn from now, and help. And for Africa, this 
is appropriate - Africa needs her *own* people to heal her, not 
outsiders. But that's another, much more pleasant story. I have to 
get back to the unpleasant parts, now. I have to get to the hardest 
part.


WHY I LEFT FACTNET

I joined FACTNET because I wanted to research and learn more about co-
ercive psychological tactics. I was talking to Bob and two days before 
the raid on FACTNET, I agreed to become a Director. This was based on 
the manifesto, which was submitted in the non-profit application. I 
was in full agreement with those principles expressed. I already knew 
about the raid on Arnie, and I was very angry at that. I remember when 
Arnie first posted the Fishman documents to the Internet, and wrote 
"Have a nice day, Miscavige", I thought to myself "THAT will hurt the 
bastards" - the bastards being Miscavige, the RTC, and Upper Church 
Management. At that stage, no-one knew that he was a Director of 
FACTNET. By the time I had joined FACTNET, I knew about the raid on 
Arnie, and was aware of all the implications, but did not anticipate 
the raid on FACTNET itself.

That caught us all by surprise. I had been working on editing the 
Press Release, which was to be posted later that week, after Lawrence 
had approved it, when I suddenly got the word that FACTNET had been 
raided. I jumped in, feet first, and posted the release, and spoke 
out, loudly, at what I saw as an outrageous attack on Freedom of 
Speech. I could not understand why the Church had done it. When the 
information later came out that it was for copyright violations, 
which Lawrence alleges was merely a smoke screen as they wanted 
access to FACTNET's information, I started to have misgivings. But I 
said nothing, as I didn't want to hurt the Cause. So, I changed the
focus onto other issues.

This has now turned into a fight over the copyrights. FACTNET will be 
challenging their authenticity in the courts, as they have openly 
stated. They are fighting back, at the heart of the Church. I was 
instructed to do research on the secret, Nazi, Occult origins of the 
materials contained in the Fishman documents, and promote dialogue 
around the subject, and get others to do the same. Joe Harrington has 
also been doing this. I have examined the OT materials extensively, 
and I have talked to, and researched several sources on Black magic, 
and I have found nothing that is similar to the purpose, and 
formulation of the OT levels, as contained in the Fishman documents.
I may have missed something, others may be able to find evidence of 
undisputed plagiarism on Hubbards part, but I have found none.

Then, when the Church started posting allegations that FACTNET is a 
scam, etc, I thought "oh, well, that's easy enough - just post all 
our financial records openly, to the net." Even though I had agreed 
to become a Director, I had not yet seen any financial records, or 
asked for them, since I assumed they would just be available, and in 
good order. I asked, and asked, and received no satisfactory answer. 
People were sending contributions, and asking me for confirmation 
that they had been received, and I was unable to do this, as I 
couldn't get any answers from the people in the States. Yet I 
was a Director. This was making me distinctly uneasy, as by being a 
Director, I would be held accountable for this, even though I had no 
personal financial interest in this, and gave of my time and 
expertise freely. Up until the time I resigned, I still had not seen 
any records, or received any assurances that they were available - 
Lawrence eventually told me that they had "gone in the raid", and 
would have to be re-constructed by the Treasurer.


Continued in Part 3.


                                
                                                                   
           








